Cycles

Last night I held a gun to my head

And recited a prayer

As I laid down to rest

And I thought about what if

I pulled this fucking trigger

And let off a round of lead

I’m not married and I don’t have kids

So who will be there?

To collect all of my shit

Cause let’s be real

I’m worth more dead

And people would rather have my money

Than the love I have to give

If I had one cent

For every drop of blood and sweat

I’d be a fucking billionaire

For all the labor that I did

And what do I get

Nothing but fake love

An ocean of lies poured from damned lips

When all I want is the truth

Even if that makes me a masochist

They say that poisoned hearts never change

But I never remember venom

Flowing from these veins

I never remember being the reason for your pain

But I was always the one who took the blame

So what happens to a man?

After all the mistakes

After a break

With what I thought was fate

I guess I take a couple of pills and liquor with them

Another victim of withdrawal symptoms

Wrapping in the blanket of addiction

And letting all the side effects kick in

As I give that revolver a spin

As I go through the cycles

Do I, or do I not really like you?

Do I choose life?

Or do I squeeze and bite you?

Do I stay in hell?

Or do I fight for heaven?

Do I chase the dream?

Or let the darkness set in?

As I go over the words I said

Our father

Who art in heaven

Hollowed be thy name

Thy kingdom come

Thy will be done

On earth as it is in heaven

Give us this day

Our daily bread

And forgive us our trespasses

As we forgive those who trespass against us

And let us not into temptation

But deliver us from evil

Deliver us from evil!

Deliver us from evil!!

Deliver us from evil!!!

Fuck this!

I got shit to do

BY OSCAR TORRES LEON

 

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