I wish I knew how to control these feelings
The pressure is tearing my heart in half
Even if I continue to smoke blunts
Take puffs into a misty dump
I can’t forget this pain that I have
All the clouds in the light
And the blue in the sky
Can just die because I am not glad
Yes I’m mad, yes I’m pissed
I have no heaven, I have no bliss
And could you please explain to me this…
Tell me, am I stupid
Or blinded by emotion
Everything I had is gone
Drowning in the ocean
Devotions lost
With friends pissed
And abused
A brother left confused
The others
Shocked by the truth
News is often
Disturbing to the ear
The only thing I fear
Losing those
I love so dear
The future is unclear
The mirror
Is just too foggy
Reflections that are seen as blurred
And
Less profounding
Elevated grounding
On pavement like winds
Every current has a purpose
Every factor has a trend
Every person with a friend
Has a cardiac to mend
And as the water bends
And descends into gravel
It reaches for the heavens
With food for these mammals
It dangles, it strangles
It hangs between the spectrum
The layers, it wavers
It favors to forget them
I am looking for redemption
But I cannot have it
No!
I cannot grab it
No!
Even if I beg them
It’s poison to my skin
It burns from within
It scars from without
Refraining from this bout
To encounter more doubt
BY OSCAR TORRES LEON
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