I remember what the pain felt like
All the lonely nights wishing I could be next to you
I remember all the things she used to whisper
I told her life’s a splinter waiting to get pulled
I remember her standing in the doorway
Telling me to go away, I don’t need this drama
I remember her mama always staring at me funny
Saying you don’t need this dummy, you can do better honey
I remember her father trying to punk me
I you want to cut me cause I make dirty money
I remember him ugly lying below my bloody knuckles
I was screaming, nigga fuck you! want to cut me I’m gonna cut you!
I remember the cops slamming me on the street
Shoved in the back seat, you have the right to remain silent
I remember all the violence, walking to the holding cell
Knowing I would go to jail for doing something stupid
I remember the fat guard yelling move it
Listen to me stupid shit, you just made bail
I remember asking her, baby why’d you do it?
She said that I knew it, that this only proved it
Because it was the truth, I kissed and held her near me
Because I love her dearly and I remember that she loves me
I remember when she loved me
I remember her
Her hug and her kiss
The taste of her lips
The way she moved her hips
I remember her
The warmth from her chest
Her sweet vanilla scent
The softness of her neck
I remember her
Working to her best
To get through the heavy stress
Cleaning hers and my mess
I remember her
A porcelain picture of perfection
Who loved me without question
For my faults and defections
I remember her
My love my dear
I remember her
My love my sweet
BY OSCAR TORRES LEON
